Well, it seemed real bad when dad was admitted into the hospital but I was a bit relieved when I was in Kuching. Seeing him and being by him helped, at least I knew his condition. It's like ertie and I reversed roles now. She's there and I'm here and she's telling me how he is.
He's in the hospital again. Due to low count for red blood cells he's feeling breathless so he needs more blood transfused and the oxygen machine.
It's just not easy to sit around and see messages appearing on my handphone not knowing whether it's from some friends inviting me out for yumcha sessions or whether it's from my family. I want the best news, of course but I know that's impossible so soon.
Oh how am I supposed to go off to Thailand now... Maybe I should just cancel?? But YCS means a lot too, and this is one big opportunity to be YCS again.
More mind boggling shit. Well, even if I'm not in Thailand, I would be here in Subang right? The soonest I can be home is most probably April, for Dad's birthday thing IF he's all well and stuff..
I'm rambling and as I do I feel all these emotions jolt up and down and all over, nauseous. Just what am I supposed to feel right now??? * sigh
1 comment:
we'll go for dinner and talk about this with your chi mui
OR
we'll go for dinner and talk a load of crock with you chi mui and forget about it for a while.
hang in there k.
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