Sunday, November 08, 2009

The Ugly Truth?

The Ugly Truth... is that I've been in love with a person I never expected myself to ever love, but all along,I've been silently, truthfully, loving him.
I love him saying I don't, I love him knowing we might never love the way others do. I love him for him, imperfect he may be from my dream prince.

His smile is the reason I'm smiling.
His laugh is one I long to hear.

And being without him is not even really living.

But if I can't love him, then perhaps I just won't love for now.

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

Just give me some more time. A bit more time to get over you.

* frozen baguet
* melted peanut butter and jelly
* M 29 where it all ended
* M 37 where it all began
* walks in front of IC
* Desperate Housewives
* mosquito net and 'Cars' bed covers
* green bar of soap
* onions
* tokbukki~
* Somewhere Over the Rainbow in 50 First Dates
* as pure as the clear blue sea
* the yellow couch
* English lessons

You, you, you.

How do you let go of someone when there is no reason to let go at all?

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Dearest Mr Honig
For a long time, I've been searching for a song that describes us and the way I feel after I left the Philippines. I think I've found it. Here's another song to remember you by..

Owl City
Vanilla Twilight lyrics

The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake and miss you.
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly,
But I'll miss your arms around me.
I'd send a postcard to you dear,
'Cause I wish you were here.

I watch the night turn light blue.
But it's not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly,
The silence isn't so bad,
Till I look at my hands and feel sad,
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.

I'll find repose in new ways,
Though I haven't slept in two days,
'Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
But drenched in Vanilla twilight,
I'll sit on the front porch all night,
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.

As many times as I blink I'll think of you... tonight.
I'll think of you tonight.

When violet eyes get brighter,
And heavy wings grow lighter,
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again.
And I'll forget the world that I knew,
But I swear I won't forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here.

**

I wish for another day, or even another hour. But what has passed remains the past. I miss you so much.

With much love,
Your Jenny

Thursday, October 22, 2009

I'm letting go~

Goodbye E. Time to let go again. Time to move on. For real, this time. No more games.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

I'm going to sleep now, so I can continue talking to you in my dreams.