Saturday, July 29, 2006
Thursday, July 27, 2006
Save the teacher
The kids are killing me. On Tuesday the 8 year olds' teacher was absent so I took over her class. The kids almost killed me.. Well, yesterday and today.. I had to leave my precious wide-eyed 2-4 year old class to teach the 6 year olds as their teacher has chicken pox! And gawd.. this has to go on for another week... I thought teaching at a kindy would mean teaching kids, I didn't realise I signed up to teach little monsters.
A few days ago, I saw a flying BMW at the highway. Well, I saw a dead black dog before I saw the flying BMW..
And yesterday, I saw a red motorbike flying with the rider and he turned round and round as he landed onto the main road. The shitty thing about this flying incident was that he rammed into my inheritence - my almost flawless Kancil. And now the hassle has begun.
I HATE MOTORBIKES.
And yesterday, I saw a red motorbike flying with the rider and he turned round and round as he landed onto the main road. The shitty thing about this flying incident was that he rammed into my inheritence - my almost flawless Kancil. And now the hassle has begun.
I HATE MOTORBIKES.
Monday, July 24, 2006
2 cycles old
If a cycle was 12 years, I would be 2 cycles old. I'm just thinking of creative ways to state my age without sounding too old for my liking. As a kindy teacher, people hardly buy the 'I'm just 18' white lie. So.. I'm 2 cycles old.
Kacuak gave me a smashing birthday celebration by throwing a bbq for me at his house. It was awesome. The food was great, great people were there.. and we had a .. GREAT time.. :) Well, too bad some barbaric fool (his housemate) had to throw his tantarums after not being invited. Gee, like I know him? Anyway, Caryn-Pin-ChengXin+YiShan gave me another surprise by handing me a homemade box with my pics and name and birthday wishes on it. Inside the box were 4 eggs with cute Jap display miniature toys inside. :) And I so wanted those when I saw them at Sg. Wang!!! :) Ertie and Ah Wah dropped by. Zhen, Sharon, Clare, Joevie and Fadhile were there too. Sunshine decided to give face for once as well! Kelvin gave me mooncakes. He was nice enough to come by after finishing a job in Penang. Mac, Natasha and Patrick dropped by at the end. It was a wonderful night. And I enjoyed myself tremendously.
The kids didn't kill me on my birthday though they were as usual very rowdy. Sean Lau celebrated his 6th birthday and had a Spiderman cake. I really didn't want to feel jealous but I did. Gee. I want a Snoopy cake man. The jelly sugary thing forming the cartoons are always yummy.
I picked the bunch up and headed to my place for lunch. Didn't cook, just packed stuff. That evening I met sunshine up for dinner at LaBodega. It was yummy, the HUGE burger but I was a bit scared of the huge-sized mushrooms.
We went to Asia Cafe after that and waited like crazy for S'ze, Arthur, Sharon, Clare and Justine to come. Just finally showed up almost near 12 midnight with the cake. The cake, with words that said 'Sorry the rest is gone' had the words tell the story. The cake was incomplete, interesting.. but incomplete. And extremely yummy.
The day ended horribly though as I got pissed, and cried my eyeballs out to Chengxin and Pin - don't ask why.. At least I didn't cry during my birthday la.
I love birthdays but I hate getting old. But this year's was pretty good. Weird, but pretty good.
Kacuak gave me a smashing birthday celebration by throwing a bbq for me at his house. It was awesome. The food was great, great people were there.. and we had a .. GREAT time.. :) Well, too bad some barbaric fool (his housemate) had to throw his tantarums after not being invited. Gee, like I know him? Anyway, Caryn-Pin-ChengXin+YiShan gave me another surprise by handing me a homemade box with my pics and name and birthday wishes on it. Inside the box were 4 eggs with cute Jap display miniature toys inside. :) And I so wanted those when I saw them at Sg. Wang!!! :) Ertie and Ah Wah dropped by. Zhen, Sharon, Clare, Joevie and Fadhile were there too. Sunshine decided to give face for once as well! Kelvin gave me mooncakes. He was nice enough to come by after finishing a job in Penang. Mac, Natasha and Patrick dropped by at the end. It was a wonderful night. And I enjoyed myself tremendously.
The kids didn't kill me on my birthday though they were as usual very rowdy. Sean Lau celebrated his 6th birthday and had a Spiderman cake. I really didn't want to feel jealous but I did. Gee. I want a Snoopy cake man. The jelly sugary thing forming the cartoons are always yummy.
I picked the bunch up and headed to my place for lunch. Didn't cook, just packed stuff. That evening I met sunshine up for dinner at LaBodega. It was yummy, the HUGE burger but I was a bit scared of the huge-sized mushrooms.
We went to Asia Cafe after that and waited like crazy for S'ze, Arthur, Sharon, Clare and Justine to come. Just finally showed up almost near 12 midnight with the cake. The cake, with words that said 'Sorry the rest is gone' had the words tell the story. The cake was incomplete, interesting.. but incomplete. And extremely yummy.
The day ended horribly though as I got pissed, and cried my eyeballs out to Chengxin and Pin - don't ask why.. At least I didn't cry during my birthday la.
I love birthdays but I hate getting old. But this year's was pretty good. Weird, but pretty good.
It's easy to not think bout sad stuff now that I'm working. Being a kindy teacher can be both extremely tiring and fun. But I like kids, so I'm still alright. Not really been to college nor meeting up with a lot of people. I still can't sob my eye balls out and get my emotional arteries unblocked. Nevertheless, life has been in a way fruitful - weird yet interesting.
Monday, July 10, 2006
Updates!!! p.s. I got a job!!!
I'm really getting bored with the blog page. It looks horribly green with no pictures. I should start to rid my laziness for the sake of a better looking page.
It's good to be back. Damn good. Well, I still can't escape from reality. Coming back doesn't bring dad back to live.. nor does it hide the smacking fact, yet it's easier to deal with my emotions here then back home.
Hmm.. updates since coming back.
- I've been to college twice. Met up with lots and lots and lots of people that I've missed horribly! Had lunch with Kelvin - got his class to be dismissed due to over-yaking with Pin and ShuQin - had a tea break with the whole photo bunch - gave Jiah Ling many huge hugs - Caught up with Fiona on her updates - Met Peter and had a jiwang time, finding out that Aizat lost his dad too - Called to schedule for an interview
- Had a successful interview on Saturday. I will be a Kindy teacher for kids age 2 -4 starting July 17!
- Attended my coll's Community day. Had lots of fun and got some cheap stuff. Played games and met up with more people!
- Watched more DVDS and the whole Taiwan drama series of 'Green Forest, My Home'...
- Got a foot reflexology session AND a whole body massage complimentary of Sunshine!
- and had yumcha sessions and dinners and stuff..
I think that's all. :) Well, life's good. And it sure will get better. I got a job!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It's good to be back. Damn good. Well, I still can't escape from reality. Coming back doesn't bring dad back to live.. nor does it hide the smacking fact, yet it's easier to deal with my emotions here then back home.
Hmm.. updates since coming back.
- I've been to college twice. Met up with lots and lots and lots of people that I've missed horribly! Had lunch with Kelvin - got his class to be dismissed due to over-yaking with Pin and ShuQin - had a tea break with the whole photo bunch - gave Jiah Ling many huge hugs - Caught up with Fiona on her updates - Met Peter and had a jiwang time, finding out that Aizat lost his dad too - Called to schedule for an interview
- Had a successful interview on Saturday. I will be a Kindy teacher for kids age 2 -4 starting July 17!
- Attended my coll's Community day. Had lots of fun and got some cheap stuff. Played games and met up with more people!
- Watched more DVDS and the whole Taiwan drama series of 'Green Forest, My Home'...
- Got a foot reflexology session AND a whole body massage complimentary of Sunshine!
- and had yumcha sessions and dinners and stuff..
I think that's all. :) Well, life's good. And it sure will get better. I got a job!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
Changes of life. :)
Gee. I love talking. I've noticed it before but I am very certain I do now. I've met up with Bea on 3 different occasions during this trip back. It's enjoying to talk about all the things that happened for the past 4 years that we've not met up. And.. now that she's engaged, her wedding was top on the list for our conversations.
Planning a wedding can be so much fun but executing all the plans can be crucially exhausting. It was fun chatting about colour schemes, budget, types of wedding photography and stuff of that sort. It's still a bit hard to believe that my close friends are tying the knot. It just seems like yesterday when we were giggling over some silly issues or running around in our school uniforms - breaking school rules and planning night outs. In two years time, I'm pretty sure most of my hometown friends would be either married, engaged or at least in a stable relationship.
I am also pretty sure that I would still be dreaming about chasing giraffes and elephants in
The ironic thing about my friends and I, close our friendships may be, is the uniqueness of our differences. We grew up together, got similar education in primary and secondary school, breathe the same air - yet our lives turn out to be so different. I'm happy for them, and at the same time I miss those good old days when we were still young and carefree.
Life. :) Everything changes.
Hah. I'm still stuck with assignments. I wonder what's keeping me from doing anything.
Somehow, I feel sleepy everyday while I'm here. It could be the bed I'm not too used to, it could be the whole year's lack of sleep crashing down on me. I'm not just exhausted, I feel lethargic. And I sleep all the time.
The weather has been absurd. It rains at the most unsuitable times and remains humid the whole day long. Sweat's popping like popcorn.
On a more consoling note, I'll be finally going back on Thursday night. I know I will miss some of my friends here, and of course it's not easy leaving mom or Jane or other family members behind - but for now, I know where I belong. (And of course, I can finish up more assignments in KL.)
Somehow, I feel sleepy everyday while I'm here. It could be the bed I'm not too used to, it could be the whole year's lack of sleep crashing down on me. I'm not just exhausted, I feel lethargic. And I sleep all the time.
The weather has been absurd. It rains at the most unsuitable times and remains humid the whole day long. Sweat's popping like popcorn.
On a more consoling note, I'll be finally going back on Thursday night. I know I will miss some of my friends here, and of course it's not easy leaving mom or Jane or other family members behind - but for now, I know where I belong. (And of course, I can finish up more assignments in KL.)
Meet ups
The 'best friend meet' two nights ago seemed pleasant enough but it ended rather abruptly around 9-ish due to personal business she had to settle. Oh well, at least we met and talked.
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Meeting up with Karen last night brought a lot of fun conversation. We were talking about the past, the present and the future. Just like old times. I've not mentioned Karen here before. Well, Karen, in the briefest notes would be described as below:-
- she's different but not too different it scares you
- we yaked almost everyday before Karen's school bus picked her up in Form 2
- we realised we sat the same way while eating before Mr. Chan's tuition class
- we passed notes often enough through anyone and everyone
- she liked funny nail polish and tying my hair when I had long hair
- she used to enjoy cutting her hair short but she always regretted
- every new target seemed 'different'.. hmm..
- we made choc cakes both after PMR and SPM. the SPM one looked funny. :P
- we sang in choirs and the Sunset band, in concerts and during school masses
- oh yeah, she forced me to sing with her during school stuff as well.
- we became facilitators during Form 3 camp though we were just in Form 2!
- lots of camps, lots of caroling.. lots of YCS stuff
- I used to steal from her fridge with her approval (but not her parents', they didn't know!)
- one camp, I brought carot and cucumber from her fridge - :P
:) There were many great things we did. Stupid ones as well. But my memories are nicely enriched due to Karen and her presence in my life.
It's really good catching up with old friends.
(If they're not too slow, that is.)
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Meeting up with Karen last night brought a lot of fun conversation. We were talking about the past, the present and the future. Just like old times. I've not mentioned Karen here before. Well, Karen, in the briefest notes would be described as below:-
- she's different but not too different it scares you
- we yaked almost everyday before Karen's school bus picked her up in Form 2
- we realised we sat the same way while eating before Mr. Chan's tuition class
- we passed notes often enough through anyone and everyone
- she liked funny nail polish and tying my hair when I had long hair
- she used to enjoy cutting her hair short but she always regretted
- every new target seemed 'different'.. hmm..
- we made choc cakes both after PMR and SPM. the SPM one looked funny. :P
- we sang in choirs and the Sunset band, in concerts and during school masses
- oh yeah, she forced me to sing with her during school stuff as well.
- we became facilitators during Form 3 camp though we were just in Form 2!
- lots of camps, lots of caroling.. lots of YCS stuff
- I used to steal from her fridge with her approval (but not her parents', they didn't know!)
- one camp, I brought carot and cucumber from her fridge - :P
:) There were many great things we did. Stupid ones as well. But my memories are nicely enriched due to Karen and her presence in my life.
It's really good catching up with old friends.
(If they're not too slow, that is.)
Monday, July 03, 2006
I'm meeting with my best friend for a drink tonight. Gee. It has been a long time. I don't think any sort of best friends would not meet for years for even a casual one on one meet. But we have had whole lot of time apart, without contact.
Best friend. It's just a title, actually. It's just like I'm saying that I would be meeting the CEO or a director or the president of some kind of organisation. It would just be a title. A darn title. You can give that bloody title to someone and they would not perform what the title suggests. Well the situation's just like that.
I sound so bitter. Why? I don't feel that bitter...
Best friend. It's just a title, actually. It's just like I'm saying that I would be meeting the CEO or a director or the president of some kind of organisation. It would just be a title. A darn title. You can give that bloody title to someone and they would not perform what the title suggests. Well the situation's just like that.
I sound so bitter. Why? I don't feel that bitter...
I've never thought of myself as an activist of any sort but I was pretty sure that if I wanted things to be different, I'd fight for it. Succumbing to the steps of the people just never really became my thing. It could be, for awhile.. and then I'd wake up, realise that the world was sucking me in, and I'd shift my mental state towards the other direction.
However, when it comes to the test of blood running thicker than water, and the brush of sore emotions, it's so so hard not to stop and wonder why you'd care to fight at all.
Why fight when you can just let it be. Just let things be. Just not be different and just not care! Everything's so much easier that way, isn't it??
However, when it comes to the test of blood running thicker than water, and the brush of sore emotions, it's so so hard not to stop and wonder why you'd care to fight at all.
Why fight when you can just let it be. Just let things be. Just not be different and just not care! Everything's so much easier that way, isn't it??
I can hear the darn clock ticking but my mind's not moving and I just don't care. I don't feel the urge, nor the strength.. to budge. I want to sleep all these events off until the airplane comes by to pick me up and send me back to the place where detaching all these unnecessary emo turmoil will release all the blockage I feel. Will I perform then?
*sigh.
I am obviously not elated. Well, I never expected myself to be happy so soon, anyway. Some incidents recent events could stir up tinges of amusement but I guess self-humouring is all I'm capable of.
I'm not crying my eyeballs out either. I'm not tearing up as much as I would want to.. but I'm sure I'll have ample space and time to do so once I get my butt back where it belongs.
Being home has ripped a few Ps off; personal space, privacy, personal time. Or perhaps I should say owning anything personal during this time round is a privilege and I'm not honoured with that.
I'm bottling up, feeling all choked up. I can hear ripping and gushing of guts and insides. It's not so torturous, no it isn't. As long as I can spit it out soon I'm sure I am all fine.
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