I've realized certain things in the past few weeks. Despite having the midterms craze, I was having a very messy situation with my love life.

As facts are laid so clearly to show my functionality in relationships, I hardly function as a girlfriend. I screw up very easily, I hurt when I don't intend to and things are always just crazy. To make things worse, I fall in love with the wrong person over and over again.

Harsh friends have asked me to grow up, be matured.. but honestly, I don't know if I actually want to. It's fun to get into shit, it's just not fun to hurt someone else I guess.

But this time round, I'm f**ked. Situations are so impossible now, it's not that he doesn't love me or I don't love him, it's just not meant to be. How many wrongs before a final right? I shouldn't be complaining. Filipinos hate people complaining, so someone has said to me. If I can't fit in, I should just go home.

I don't know what I'm doing what I'm doing and I really can't control what I want to do and what I have done, and what I will do.. but all my actions are making me doubt who I really am. Who am I?