Am I 25, 15 or 5?

Last day of October, Halloween.

The only ghosts spooking my life now are myself and the person I'm supposed to be in love with.

I hate to be controlled. I hate the feeling of another person judging my actions and saying 'no' to the things I want to do. I hate the way things are said or situations are made to seem that I should feel guilty of what I have done.

I know I am not totally innocent but I am supposed to live life as wild or crazy or at least HOW I want to live it before I get all settled down and shit like that, right?

It's annoying how my actions can affect another person's day. Gawd.. Days like these make me want to pack up and leave this place on the next flight out.

I am going to Laos next year for a whole week with Aunty Kathy for an all expense paid trip as a companion and travelling mate! :) Can't wait.. So excited.

I've left this blog for a month but I have been around. And I have tried to be alright and to continue with the plans I made and though there were some disturbance midway, things are still going as planned.

There are times when I feel so alone.. I know not who to make decisions with, I fear the consequences of decision made - consequences that I will have to bear alone.

I finally put my feet down. I will not be stepped all over my head again. This warning goes out to all those who enjoy messing around with me. I have had enough. I will not be pushed around anymore. I have let myself be weak for 2 years and that's long enough to be a pussy.

Though I do not have a definite date on when I will take off to the Philippines, I know for sure that I will. I will need a huge God intended interference to make me change my mind.

But for now, I am making plans to go back home for sometime to find myself again...