Tuesday, January 31, 2006

CNY - Day Two

Hmm.. :) I woke up very early and was pretty semangat to do my share of visiting. Unfortunately, I met with a yoga enthusiast, my 2nd sister, who refused to get her ass out of the house till past noon.

Visited Ma Ee and Kong at Lion's Nursing Home. Sneaked him out to my place. Haha..

But I left awhile after that.. for a 'caving experience' to Fairy and Wind Cave. Gee. Chen, my bro- in law's bro, is mad.

Chen is:-
- a Master's holder in Quantum Physics
- an engineer with 1st Silicon
- my bro in law's only younger bro
- a Taiwanese superstar look alike
- someone I had a crazy crush on during my sister's wedding (Rick and I fought like mad over this - Hiakz.)
- an introvert without many friends
- an all- rounder, athlete - nature enthusiast - photography enthusiast

Oh well...

So we went caving with Ryoko and Monica (who seems to like Chen) and my sister was saying that 3 girls were pursuing after Chen (Gee!!! Including me.. Sue me for flirting with everyone le...) for goodness knows what reason.

Was a pretty nice and enriching trip. Caving during the 2nd day of CNY, interesting! With make up and heels and skirts. Oh gee.

The Junk. Dinner was Lamb Shank for me, Organic Chicken for Ryoko, a HUGE plate of fried seafood for Chen and lots of soft shell crabs for Monica. Livia and Cyril joined us and we had a good time chatting and teasing Chen with Ryoko. :) Haha.. And Ryoko's just so funny with English but she's real fun to be with.

And I came home, took a shower and started to grow some fungus around me before Nic chimuii came and saved my life. I resuscitated with my stick of death and lived happily ever after.

Okieee, I went home. :P And slept!

Monday, January 30, 2006

p.s. Just, I am so thankful to still experience your company back home. Please don't get married too soon, k?

* desperately hanging on till CNY vacation's over!!!

Day One - CNY 2006

Daddy's not feeling well. Visiting? Off. 3 houses only - Seh Ku's, GreatGrandMa's, Glo's.

Bing! Was nice having a 'family youngsters' gathering'. Felt very emo throughout the whole time.

It's the 1st night of Chinese New Year. I am...
Answer: Sitting at home, preparing for bed.

Goodbye nights of 'debauchery'.

Stick of death, anyone?
Answer: *Silence...

Where are my hangout buddies le?
Sad, sad answers:
- Aaron's in Aussie doctoring, John's silent.
- Glo's not feeling well.
- Nic's exhausted, feeling unsocial.
- Jac's exhausted, I dunno why.
- Ah Nic's dating...
- Livia's M.I.A...
- Bachelorz are afraid of the dangerous night crowd.

Oh. My. Goodness.

I can see my CNY 5 years from now - I will be paying to get someone to hangout with me.
Life IS changing.
I AM getting old???!?!?!?
Or at least.. my friends and cousins are starting to act OLD?????

Oh. No.

Sunday, January 29, 2006

CNY Eve.

Woke up around 8 but was too tired to totally wake up so I snoozed. While snoozing I was thinking of black fungus that hasn't been bought. :)

Cooked my special pork dish and everyone pretty much liked it! Ertie say it's 'nyonyalised' and not Chinese le.

Did some chores and went to sleep. Went for mass after that.

Dinner was steamboat of crabs, prawns, abalone, top shells, pacific clams and other yummy, yummy stuff!! :) Too bad Dad couldn't join us, he wasn't feeling well. He feels that everything stinks! Enjoyed dinner slowly and washed up after that.

Nic came over and we had a good chat while eating kuaci. Later Che, Ryoko and Chen came over. Chatted with Chen and had pretty good laughs. It's so weird to think that a year ago we were total strangers and his smile was so fake! :P

Near midnight we went outside to watch the endless fireworks. At midnight we lit our own row of firecrackers and 2 barrels. It was awesome!!! - especially the last explosion of the first barrel! Chen was totally happy and Ryoko just looked amazed! Neighbours had rows and rows of firecrackers lit perpetually practically!! The whole neighbourhood lit up and looked as though we were at war! Fun.. :) I tried to communicate with Ryoko as well.

Had more good laughs with Chen including pillow swatting after criticising remarks I made on him. Che gave me a truly good red packet! Yips!!! Contribution for my convo!!

Later painted my nails after a nice bath and.. zzz.

Back Home!!

Early 27th morn, I was sent to the airport with ertie and ah wah by Rick and Just. :0 Flight was okay. Was really sleep though and just as I was falling into 'deep slumber', I was back home! :)

Celebrate my parents' 30th year wedding anniversary by going for mass and a vegetarian dinner. Daddy wasn't feeling well, am pretty worried actually. He went home to rest and mom acompanied him. Jane decided to stay home so I went for CNY's night market with ertie, ah wah, Jerome, che and her Jap friend Ryoko. Meh came along as well.

Was ridiculously enjoyable - laughed a lot but bought nothing much. Ertie, wah and Jerome left early but didn't really inform Meh and I. Che and Ryoko got lost so I spent a good 15 minutes frantically searching for them. When I finally found them and was about to go home, che told me to send her to her in law's house as she has all her stuff with her already. Gee, talk about communication at home huh. There's NO communication!! Everyone assumes. Reaching her in law's, her mom in law (Aunty Angie) passed flowers that ertie ordered over to me and I was like ?!?!?!?. So Meh held an arrangement whereas the big one sat alone behind. :) Good thing is that I got to see Chen! *Hiaks.. :)

Yumcha and went home. Eventful and I'm really enjoying my vacation despite the little chaos here and there..

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

Worms.

Dear Just,
I will not go to jail for your dining pleasure.
Forget the scheme, it's not going to work.

:)
Love lots,
Vic
I want to trust you. I want to trust you so much.
I want to live life happier, not to fret and be paranoid all the time.
It's not easy to be in such a state all the time. And it's no fun to get angry as well.
Why can't you make life easier for us? Why can't you understand what 'NO' means?
Why break rules when rules of such shouldn't be broken? Am I not enough?

If we go on like this, I would just have to tell you to go ahead with everything and tell me nothing.
Maybe then when I detach my emotions I would feel more at ease?

Life is so complicated.

Monday, January 23, 2006

Gee. Assignments (and more)

It's so hard to get my ass off my bed and onto the chair, fingers on the keyboard and get it clicking away. Doing assignments isn't fun anymore. It's actually pretty annoying for me, at times, especially when I write crap like 'Emotional Intelligence'. Gee, I don't even possess that, what more to say write bout it.

I just want to laze around in this hot, hot weather - in my room, wearing skimpy shorts and a singlet. No one will know how skimpy they are anyway. Watch DVDs all day long and puff like a chimney when I'm bored.

Why can't I take pictures of flowers anymore and submit my passionate subject of my passionate activity to complete my passionate and desired course?

I was taking a dump at the wee hours of the morning when I realised that Journalism isn't what I want. I don't like writing by the rules. Writing's fine but rules?? * sigh. Yeah sure.. Photography and Journalism will make a good match and I only have to bear with this course for a year. 8 more subjects to go. (and 2 assignments left for the current 2 subjects, that is)

The passion driven person isn't doing what she loves anymore. How could this be? How could I let this happen to me? Why in the world did I succumb to reality? I do not want to wake up one morning and acknowledge myself as an 'aunt' or a 'grandaunt'. I will be forever me. I need to keep to that else I'll just let my dreams wither away like how many friends of my age are letting their lives get sucked into the monotonous, routine passage of life.

I don't want to get stuck in a marriage with wailing kids and house chores (b0nus would be a wicked mother in law as well) just because I feel obliged to follow the pattern of nature and life. I will only do what I think is best and what I like doing, what I'm happy doing.

But.. I'm on this darn scholarship that's not paying yet for now. Conclusion for this rambling would be to stop thinking in such a pessimistic manner and to live with it with happy thoughts. After this year, I vow to never ever do what I do not feel good about. I must live life happy.

p.s. Gee, with CNY coming.. pressure will be all over.

Big Question: Do you have a boyfriend?
Big Answer: By choice, no. I have a life partner. Gee.

Another Big Question: So don't you want to get married?
Answer: I might if I want wailing kids and a life of regret. Okie.. it's an option but not for another 10 years, perhaps?

Annoying Question: Have you finished studying?Answer: A Diploma, yes. Doing my degree.. crashing it, 1 more year!!! (* fake grin)

Super Annoying Question: So are you coming back to open a studio after you're done with your studies?
Answer of a lifetime: NO!!! I do not want to go back and open some funny studio taking pictures of people. NO!!!!

Okie, I admit. I'll never be so rude. * sigh ....

Friday, January 20, 2006

Burnt black from Trip One.

Someone asked me if I'm Chinese today. Again. People often confuse my race, not like it really matters le. I'm so rojak biologically and otherwise. :P

Sun burnt. Doesn't hurt that much anymore. Got back from Trip One with my lecturer (and friend) for her Masters Thesis on the Visuals of Chinese Shop Houses. Interesting topic, did a big bit of taking pictures in Perak, Penang, Kedah and Perlis. Bliss. 4 1/2 days - 4 states.

We set off for Trip One last Saturday (14/1) and drove to Ipoh. Stayed at Heritage, ate Taugeh Chicken, took lots of pics and got Old and New town confused. Learnt more from Fiona's text books. Gee, I should consider using this topic for a degree of some sort???

Sunday (15/1). Went to Old Town. Hey.. it's so nearby you can't tell the difference! Left for Penang's Georgetown. It's pretty hot and stuffy there. Lots of Chinese burning papers for the dead, I guess. Everyone's out buying and buying. Stayed at Grand Con Pg. Not too great but the service was nice. More pics. Ate at Lrg. Baru - Char Kuey Tiao, Beef Noodles, Tau Kuah Bakar, Apam and Muachee. Hmm.. and I thought this trip would make me thinner.. Aduh. Chat and went to sleep.

Woke up early and ate the 2nd Buffet Breakfast of this trip. Took more pics after breakfast and was almost late for check out! Went to Chulia Street and that stretch (Campbell, Pintal Tali, Beach, Kimberly, Carnavon.. and the whole lot..) I think when I was born, bits of my soul flew in from Penang. I seem to know this place now. Hmm.. Checked out but went for a shopping and photo taking spree. Nice. Love Lane. Met a very cute guy selling fruits. Gee. Drove to Alor Setar, Kedah. Found the hotel (another Grand Con), checked in - ate dinner, back to the hotel and blacked out.

Gee. It's Tuesday already. Had the most amazing day today. Started out taking pics and exploring Alor Setar. Apparently, the government in A.S seems to be making extra effort to maintain the old buildings. Repainting them and stuff. Am touched. Other places don't seem to bother - not even many parts of Georgetown and Ipoh are maintained well! After checking out we headed to Kangar. It's pretty interesting, the little highway we were travelling on.. actually it's a trunk road. We got to see melons and their vines circling off electrical wyers crossing the trunk road. :) amazing! They've got baby traffic lights there. Cute. Small place. Nice food. And we headed north to find the exit to the highway. Fiona kinda freaked out at this part. We were going so north we were heading to Thailand. Even the names of the area were getting funny - Arau; Changloon.. But we go onto the highway and drove all the way down to Ipoh passing Kedah and Penang Mainland. Whoa. What a day. Driving past 4 states and hanging out at 3 in 1 day. Sleepy.. sleepy...

Last day, Wednesday (18/1). Bought food!!! Went to 'The Story of Ipoh' at Muzium Darul Ridzuan. Was amazing, the exhibition. Can't say much bout today. I'm totally burnt, I'm sick of Buffet Breakfast (had 4 consecutive mornings of that!) and am ready to rest in.. Selangor. Aduh.

Good to be back. But I'm very black. :) (It's not a bad thing, healthy color for outdoor photographers like me!)

Friday, January 13, 2006

I just realised. I don't like green but my blog's green. Hmm...

It's supposed to be unlucky today but...

Today's Update
(Note:Red = annoyance; blue = slight joy; purple = praying hard - but they're all faded, coz I'm still calm...)

Hmm. Friday the 13th isn't so lucky after all, for me at least. And Caryn too.

It's a pretty calm day yet I'm feeling all jellyish to slap someone hard at his annoying face. I know I should let bygones be. It's just a natural instinct I guess.

I left my pen drive in the lab yesterday. Was so blur I didn't realise till early this morning. Came back and got it from Mr. IT guy. Such an innocent and honest person, bless his soul. :)

Had a good chat with OuFei. So much happened since the last chat. Was a good one.

There's a teeny possibility that our convo might be changed to Feb 24th. If so, I'll be heading home again Feb 16th till 21st or 22nd! Let's hope so..

"Some bad people took some things that don't belong to them. These bad people will, however, not be caught. The owner will have to bear the loss - 'him' and the rest of the people who are totally innocent." Darn bad human beings. * sigh *

"Casper's friends are walking around numbers 5 & 9." Ooooooooo....

Yesterday's Results.
(Note:No colors for past days' stuff.. Old news.)

Ooo.. I did get my student ID changed yesterday - it now bears a SEGi logo and name. Hmm.. It's nice, a different feeling though.

My toothache was pretty bad yesterday. So bad I couldn't close my mouth for the whole night - felt like a fish. Eating bread actually hurt too!

It's confirmed. Am leaving Saturday at 9 in the morning. Perak, here I come! Can't believe how lucky my stars are this year and how much God's blessing me with this year! Yips!

The new building does give me headaches. It's the paint smell...

Caryn's driver sent me home. Felt so pampered having someone drop me at my doorstep! Driving's actually tiring, I like walking.

I miss Just! Just, come home. Sarawak's no fun if you stay too long - COME HOME!!!

I like burning CDs. It gives me a sick sense of fulfilment wasting CDs!

-*-*-*-*-

I like crapping. Now that's 'new'.

Thursday, January 12, 2006

One annoying thing that doesn't change with the college moving and rebranding
- MLVK students.
Forever annoying. Sad wannabes. * sigh

Scribbling...

Somebody woke me up this morning with a call asking me about where I'm interested to go for my Thailand trip. Well, I realised one thing le.. the feelings have totally left. Good, good.

Set out to Summit and Coll with an agenda. However, all things have failed.

Mission No. 1 - Print and send letter to the Starr Foundation by FedEx
Status : Mission Failed.
Reason : I left the address and contact information at home, even the back up piece.

Mission No. 2 - Print 26 pcs of 8R for FREE at Bintang Maju
Status : Hard to identify.
Reason : Am printing 10 pcs but paying RM 50/-!!! Vouchers expired!!

Mission No. 3 - Repair sport shoes
Status : Mission Failed.
Reason : Cost RM 40/- for new soles man! Gee.. Go rompak lerrr tauke!

Mission No. 4 - Enquire about Student ID
Status : Hard to identify.
Reason : Am asked to change as I'm a degree student now. Unfortunately, Summit's lift to 4th floor's not working. I need to walk too far.. too far....

Despite all failures, the sun is still shining brightly and I am still trying to be positive.
However as life has it, more bad follows the bad and now my left row of teeth is aching horribly and my head is starting to spin a bit and my back bones are starting to shake a bit. I am pretty sure I'll get a fever tonight as the nights before.

The only thing I feel now towards everything is.. 'Aduh. Salahnye'.

p.s. Skipping classes tonight!!!

Oh yeah, trip 1 with Fiona starting this Saturday!!! Will be heading to 4 states, namely: Perak, Penang, Kedah & Perlis. Coming back Weds.
Yipeeyayyeah.

A date with.. myself.

As everyone seemed to have something to do and I didn't, I went for dinner and to the movies alone last night. Dinner was sweet. Was kinda interrupted (ahem!!) by Kuyet and bunch but as I was erm, not entertaining anyone, it was still okay. :)

Chinese Tall Story. A stupidly funny story, sweet at the end. Am OK about it ler.

Date ended without anything major happening. Was pretty fun actually. I should get used to this being alone scenario if I have future plans to do more travelling and photographing flowers. :)

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

SEGi College - Subang Jaya :)

Prime, MSC and SIC, together with Systematic and IBMS have all died recently. Replacing their spot is SEGi. The group that owns us is now us, making my college a part of one of the biggest college in Malaysia. Nice.

Went to take a walk around the new building for my coll on Monday (Jan 9) after handing in some assignments. Impressive. Rather stylo but no auditorium. :)

Some rooms are smaller than they're supposed to be (Photo Studio, Dark Room).. some are huge.. too big!!! (Black Box!!! - not black yet)

In many ways I'll miss the old building - especially since it's so close to the cinema; but the new building's smashing. Memories of the past will remain in Summit and hoping to start more memories here.

Enigma

I went to this place for the female curves, Enigma, recently after having a beautiful birthday dinner for Reese at the Social, Bangsar.

In huge and extremely drastic contrast to the Social, Enigma was packed crowded.. illegal at the 2nd guess and chocking with guys wannabe.

Music blasting amps.. music breaking and repeating... Cigarette smoke substituting oxygen. No fresh air.. a total fire hazard and potential cops arrest scene.

I will only go back there if I'm desperate for a guy wannabe or if I want lung cancer.

Thursday, January 05, 2006

Memories

Wani's leaving for France tomorrow. Her dream is finally set and she is ready to be 'set free'. I remember the days when we hung out at my old place, drinking beer and puffing Dunhill Menthol Lights while discussing her dreams and mine. Her dreams are realising soon but mine? Hmm.. What are mine?

Well, I know what dreams I have now. Short term goals and dreams to be met but strong at heart to be kept, nevertheless.

I was granted an extension for my assignment, by the way..

Back to memories and taking the route that leads to memory lane. It's only been 3 years and so much has happened already! I've finished my Diploma in Photography. Met, got closed and lost so many friends. :) The losing part isn't all that great but I have to accept situations for what they are. People do change and people do leave. I have no control over certain scenarios that might lead to friends leaving or changing, I just have to accept and embrace them with hope. :)

Wani and I laughed over past incidents and memories and continued planning ahead. She's planning to drink soup for a year and lose weight. :) I'm sticking to the vege and fruits thingy. Meat, yeah, a bit.

There's so much to share about past stuff but I guess memories should be left deep in my heart. Bringing them to topic would cause unwanted stirs of emotions.

I will miss Wani just like how I am missing Billy and Yu Yao and closer friends like Macy and Moesan. But our dreams need to be realised and lives should go on as planned. No matter how near or far friends are, as long as they're close to heart and happy with their lives, I am with mine and situations too.

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

New Hopes, Fresh Dreams!!!

The year started out pretty fine.. hoping all will go perfectly smooth for Year 2006.

Dec 31st and Jan 1.
New Year's Eve was celebrated at SFX with Rick. Felt so much at ease after 'releasing the prisoner, me'. Sent out apologetic messages to forgive and forget someone who hurt, it's all bygones now.

The first thing I popped into my mouth for Year 2006 : Salem Lights.
The first thing I ate for Year 2006 : A single prawn.

Messages came in streams. Felt the tinge then and again. Missing people who are far away.. missing people who are close by but unreachable.

Attended a wedding of a friend's. It's a pretty sad story. Hoping happier days lie ahead. 'Bangga diri' the whole night long due to my outfit, ahemz.. and attention! :)

Found this very interesting place in Taipan, Naili's. It's a branch from the 'upper class mamak in Ampang'. Sat at Table No. 1. Felt so, so happy. This place is lovely.

Jan 2.
Met Sam Wong up. A charming and yummy person. Got to stay away, by the way.. :) Great new friend. The messaging was worth it.

Also went to Bumbu Bali for the first time. :) Yummy Avocado Milk Shake. Sin of all times. Cream. Hmm..

Jan 3.
Just's PA for the day. Well, I deserve it. New year, change of roles I guess! :)

Chia made me sad sending me nostalgic emails about the past and remembering certain memories of the past.



Ooo.. also, Dec 30. Finally stepped into TJ Corner at SS 18. The place is just so peaceful, so beautiful and so comfy!!! Reasonable price too! New hangout joint! Yips!!!

I don't think I'm really blogging anymore.. This has become a diary. Hmm..

I'm going offline... *beep*