Here I Go..

I do not exactly know what prompted me to create another blog (I do have a Friendster blog).. and I notice myself typing properly.. without the usual sticky caps, I guess Justine may be a big part of the reasons for this blogging issue and the none sticky caps issue. The truth is, I have no darn idea how to blog here.. seriously. How do you add links? Images? So many questions running in my head.

I've got so much in my mind. I can't seem to make people listen to me every time something pops out, can I? I guess I feel too much insecurities. Not just that, I feel too much boredom. I want to talk all day long, with someone. But I can't find anyone. There just doesn't seem to be anyone to sit down and talk to. Unlike the past 2 years. Every corner you turn in college, you bump into someone damn great to hangout with. And you hang all day in college. Going home to a forlorn looking environment with wacko housemates doesn't seem that bad after a blastful day in college. And now.. * sigh * maybe it is the holidays. Maybe the holidays cause a zombie town feel to sweep by me everytime I walk around MSC. Maybe.. Maybe.. Maybe not. Maybe I'm running out of friends. I can't call Justine everytime I'm bored. Hmm..

I am already 23. Damn. I turned 23 last month.. or should I say few weeks ago? 2? Nothing seems settled still. My job application to work in MSC.. well, that seems like it's pending forever. Mr. P told me that he will contact me when he hears anything. I guess I've been bugging him so much he's starting to feel awkward having to deal with me popping my head in at least twice a day. So, no job. No job yet. Can't get a job now, actually.. I mean outside jobs. Will be studying twice each week for 7 weeks with Jye and Daniel. Digital Imaging II. I just want to get it done and over with. I have finished my finals but I can't seem to tell everyone I'm a Dip. graduate. It will be a lie. People have actually started congratulating me for something a bit not that close to the truth. I am not a graduate yet. I still have one little bugging subject left. Thank goodness Justine's taking DI II with me. Else I'll be stuck with Jye and Daniel. Talk about awkwardness. Eeks. One to one has never been my thing for any forms of anything. Think straight, don't stray.

Let's see. No job. Nothing to do, but selling cloth for the banner. Caryn, if you do read this, good. I hate the banner too. I hate it, hate it, hate it more than I hate anything in this world. Why, oh why did I ever, ever come up with such a stupid idea. And why, oh why did the council agree to it? I am so glad to have Caryn and Sean drawing on the cloth with me.. How long more do we have to endure before we officially enter Tanjung Rambutan or anywhere with similar services?

Moving house. Above all the insecurities in life (jobless and council job not going too well).. all the worries that I try not to show.. I now have to find someone, a housemate, a decent housemate (someone who will not take drugs, bring weird people and sell illegal stuff) to fill up the empty room in the unit I've rented at Court 2. Finding a girl seems to best choice. On the other hand, a guy will be more handy to have around. * sigh * I hate finding housemates. Not knowing who you'll share your 'life' with seems a bit scary. My life is now at home. Seriously. I don't like clubbing anymore. I'm not taking much pictures of flowers these days. I find shopping complexes boring and I am too broke to go for holidays around. So I stay at home and watch DVDs. And I have to stay at a safe place with a safe person, right? I don't even know when I should move. Gee.

And there's the other activity for the council. But if I go on any further, this post will turn out to be a chapter for a book. So I'm going to end it NOW. The blog, I mean.