Standing on the outside, once more, looking in.
Standing amidst the crowd with a big huge grin, but with a heart so heavy.

I need to realize, and to understand that this is life and it will be painful. It will be difficult and it will be challenging. I can't keep on expecting to smile every day. I need to be realistic and to buck up, otherwise, I'll be left behind, again.

But it just gets so lonely.