Blog Stalker?

I've enjoyed blog stalking. Sue me for being sick if I really am but I do think it's pretty fun reading about someone's life and feeling like you're a part of it.

This blog is a space to free my mind. As it is named, I cannot and will not write things I do not feel and things that are untrue. It will be wrong. It will be a place to lie instead, right?

I know it's weird to think this way but I cannot imagine people I'm not close to reading this. I find it even more hard to believe that people will actually read someone else's blog, click on the link and end up here AND continue to click on other links here. It's just too funny an image to even try conjuring.

These past 2 days have been really weird. I always thought that when the day came for me to let go, it would be out of my choice rather than being forced to with messages that arrived so early on a SUNDAY MORNING. * sigh * Well, looking at the bright side, the process of letting go is sped up! Yeah.. that's something so worth rejoicing, isn't it? I'm so overjoyed to move on. It is time, it has got to be time. This annoying feeling has been around for a bit too long!!!!

Well, the funniest part of the whole scenario would be 'Supposed-To-Be Prince Charming' acknowledging my extremely confused feeling after stumbling upon this blog. Interesting.

Pouring my heart out at a virtual 'space to free my mind' has now killed my normal everyday reality routine to live life happy and smiling. I am now practically forced to let go immediately OR ELSE be known as the stupid self- pitying person I would seem to be! If I were to shut up and not write and not feel, what would life be all about huh? So writing here hurts me. What else am I suppose to do to let this shitty feeling out? Play more Bejeweled and Insaniquarium? Type out what I feel, print it out and pass it around for friends to comment? What I feel and what I write is used against me to force me to let go. WHAT?

Just, it's true. I now feel cheap and stupid for liking him, for having this crush. It sucks. I should have seen it coming and not feel what I felt and not do what I did. I can now totally relate to a stupid heartbroken teenager. I just wish I can wake up from this horrible, horrible nightmare. But I can't. This is life and this is MY LIFE. * sigh........*

Blog stalking? Never thought it would be the way for him to find out. Never!