A few things to think about...

1) Should I stay or should I go?
2) Go where if I go - home or elsewhere?
3) What do I really want to do?
4) Gawd.. what am I good at?
5) Can I actually live my dreams?
6) What's the best way to live a free life and support myself?

More things to think about...

1) How do I get rid of the 2 cats that're haunting my house?
2) Where the heck do I get a gas company's number to get new tank of gas?
3) Should I buy things to cook or just forget about cooking.. * sigh .. there's no gas too!
4) How do I make my drying area look more decent - it's falling apart!
5) How do I get the bloody suction pegs thingy to work?
6) Will those bloody cats get in my room?

And the list goes on...

1) Will I be late today?
2) Will it suddenly get so horribly jammed I pass out sometime somewhere due to severe- jam-shock?
3) Will I get a bloody seat in the train?
4) Will the train breakdown or come late again?
5) Will my bosses run amok on me?
6) Will I chew up my colleagues?

So many questions, so little time..

I just want to sleep a bit later, pls?

Congrats, baby brother!

My baby brother scored all As for his SPM examinations. I am so damn proud of him. I just wish daddy was still around to witness his son's brief glory.

Still missing you, daddy and it doesn't get easier.

And I thought it'd be better

I was dumb to not go home for Chinese New Year as going home would mean facing reality head on that daddy won't be around for this year's celebration. Went to Kluang instead. It wasn't all that bad, it just wasn't as fun as all my Kluang trips had been. For one, everyone's busy with family commitments and family activities and I'm feeling very left out. Cindy's family celebrates CNY on a smaller scale and having 2 grown up kids make the house rather quiet as well. Left Kluang on the 2nd evening and spent the 3rd day rather bored. Went to visit Just's family at her Ah Kong's and was rather entertained there. Other than that, I've had a few rather quiet yumcha sessions and some working days for CNY as well. Oh, and a sick day off.

* sigh

Am looking forward to next year's CNY. Wonder how things will turn out to be??

The first dilemma of the year - I'm in the company that I do want to be in but not doing what I like and it's not going the way I want it to.

So what's next? * sigh