Dearest Mr Honig
For a long time, I've been searching for a song that describes us and the way I feel after I left the Philippines. I think I've found it. Here's another song to remember you by..

Owl City
Vanilla Twilight lyrics

The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake and miss you.
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly,
But I'll miss your arms around me.
I'd send a postcard to you dear,
'Cause I wish you were here.

I watch the night turn light blue.
But it's not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly,
The silence isn't so bad,
Till I look at my hands and feel sad,
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.

I'll find repose in new ways,
Though I haven't slept in two days,
'Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
But drenched in Vanilla twilight,
I'll sit on the front porch all night,
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.

As many times as I blink I'll think of you... tonight.
I'll think of you tonight.

When violet eyes get brighter,
And heavy wings grow lighter,
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again.
And I'll forget the world that I knew,
But I swear I won't forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here.

**

I wish for another day, or even another hour. But what has passed remains the past. I miss you so much.

With much love,
Your Jenny

I'm letting go~

Goodbye E. Time to let go again. Time to move on. For real, this time. No more games.

I'm going to sleep now, so I can continue talking to you in my dreams.

I'm home. But I'm feeling homesick, for my other home. It's so difficult to get by these sad and lonely nights, reminiscing the good old times in IC.. thinking what it would be like if I were still there.

I talked to Thilo just now, and somehow I wanted to cry so badly after I hung up. I miss him so much. Knowing that even if I go back, and I won't find him there, it just feels so wrong.

I cooked a dish for dinner just now, and when I smelt my hands that were stinking of onions, I couldn't help but wish he was here next to me.

Ya sure the world is not all that big, and that I could always resort to mental telepathy to talk to him, but it would be so much better if time could have stopped, and we could have both been in IC still, talking like there was no tomorrow.

Thilo Honig, you're truly missed...

Restless.

It's that little gap of time in between the afternoon at the nights that drives me insane. And you're not around to brush away this restless feeling anymore. I miss you, much. And I don't even have a way to contact you. It's as though life is telling me to let you go, to forget you and move on. I was ready to do that, but you promised otherwise. Should I remain patient?