Dilemma.

Is this a test I have to undergo? Is there no way out? Am I supposed to live with this?

I really am not sure how I'm suppose to take up this task, Lord. I am no sissy and I can be tough when I am. But is this really necessary for this mission?

Am I picky? Am I too choosy? If I can't even go through with this, how am I supposed to be a good social worker?

Sigh.. I am feeling so tired and not finding my own place is actually interrupting with my concentration for reading. I still need to read 23 more chapters of Iliard.

Oh please Lord, find me a proper room? One where I can laugh, cry and most importantly STUDY in?

I am tired out. I have to read so much it's as though it's payback time for not being with books for the past 8 years, or maybe erm.. less than that. Since the MSC and photography days, I've stashed my books away and started clicking away with my camera. Now I'm just so extremely tired with the idea of reading but then it could be fun.

I thought 'The Iliard' was going to kill me. I tried 2 pages and almost gave up. English literature. The only reasons why I took this subject was because I needed to fill up 1 more GE subject this semester, and that I felt that I could do well. It's English, c'mon. But it's not JUST English. It's the English subject everyone avoids. I think all the students in my class are just there because they need to fill up their GE requirements. Hah. But it's not so bad. I just need a cool and proper environment and I can be reading again. If I'm not distracted, I bet I can read for hours. I used to, and I'm sure I will again soon.

But English Lit isn't the only class with reading. Readings are required for all other classes. Even Geography and Creative Writing.

So my nose is in my books. But I want to spend more time with my new best friend before we part ways!!! Gee man. It's back to juggling social life with my studies. How interesting.

Well.. I'm a student again! A freshie, to be exact! And that means.. studies first, socialising next. Love life? Let's postpone that. As how Harry puts it when people try to intro girls to him (his relationship is a secret, it's complicated la, the whole story.. ) I'll just quote him 'I'm so busy.. I don't have time for a relationship. Besides, I'm not lonely' :) But occasionally I am. And when Harry goes back to Incheon and when I move out of Dik's.. loneliness will strike me. But I guess I just need to talk to the person next to me - my new roommate, whoever she is!

I am now a UP freshie! :) Classes have started. I'm so, so happy. I am finally living the start
of my dreams!

Class Registration - My Baptism of UP life

I'm 10 years too late, but I'm doing it anyway. I'm registering for subjects and running all around the university. Though tired to the bones I am, I'm not giving up. Late registration caused most of the subjects I wanted to enlist for to be out of slots or closed, but I still managed to sign up for creative writing and geography. English literature wasn't desired, but I took it for the sake of filling up credits for this semester as most of the maths, science and technology subjects are full.

Gawd. Imagine studying biology or geology for the first time? Kinda weird, it seems.. but that's what I'll be doing next semester and the following, believe it or not. :)

I've not walked so much for such a long time. Only during my travels do I walk so much. Even my hips are aching!

Orientation and classes start next Tuesday. Need to pay fees and continue on other things that I've not done then. Sigh.. still applying for dorm. I hope I get a space la!

Can't wait for my new life to start. It's getting close now! Oh well, actually it started already.

I know that I will be alright very soon after this. I just wonder how long that would be. But in the meantime.. I'm going to have lots of fun. Am already doing that, actually.

Just not used to the change of pace in life, and perhaps the lack of attention in love aspect.