And I thought it'd be better

I was dumb to not go home for Chinese New Year as going home would mean facing reality head on that daddy won't be around for this year's celebration. Went to Kluang instead. It wasn't all that bad, it just wasn't as fun as all my Kluang trips had been. For one, everyone's busy with family commitments and family activities and I'm feeling very left out. Cindy's family celebrates CNY on a smaller scale and having 2 grown up kids make the house rather quiet as well. Left Kluang on the 2nd evening and spent the 3rd day rather bored. Went to visit Just's family at her Ah Kong's and was rather entertained there. Other than that, I've had a few rather quiet yumcha sessions and some working days for CNY as well. Oh, and a sick day off.

* sigh

Am looking forward to next year's CNY. Wonder how things will turn out to be??

The first dilemma of the year - I'm in the company that I do want to be in but not doing what I like and it's not going the way I want it to.

So what's next? * sigh

There are times when sacrifice disguises as stepping stones to bigger dreams. Will I ever reach you - dreams of Vicky?

I miss home but going back will mean facing with reality that I'm not ready to accept - how will CNY 07 be? Non existent?

I've been unfair to you, boo. I've always complained that you're too sticky and now that you're gone for a super short weekend trip in Siam, I'm complaining. What the heck is wrong with me? I now understand the shit I throw at you when I pack up and leave just 2 weeks (+/-) after announcing my departure to some foreign country alone.

* sigh

Year 2007 has been a year of reflecting, renewing, revitalising and all the re-s. Hmm..

Hey you. I've really, honestly not been stalking but gee.. are coincidents so coincidental?

Hmm.. another job interview for a position unidentified. The lady on the phone sounds fun. Let's go try it out on Monday at 7 pm okay?

Entering the X world. Seriously.

Job hunting was a bit scary but I finally found a job. I was supposed to be hired for an Executive for Special Projects post but due to my overwhelming (ya, konon) experience in part time adminstrative works, they thought I was interviewing for an admin assistant post and hired me. Gee. I'm in a huge event management company with lots to learn, lots of promises but am doing admin for 6 probational months. After that period, they might consider me for projects. Dilemma's announcing it's arrival once more and am not entirely happy PLUS I have to commute 1 1/2 hours - minimum travelling time, mind you - a day. Is this worth it? Will I be happy at the end?

Well, who knows. This is fun, not knowing what will happen tomorrow. I should stick to it for now.

Some changes ya.

I've been off the net for about 3 weeks now and not updated this space for about as long, or perhaps longer and things have changed.

Moving house was fun in some ways but suicidal in others. I wanted to cry as I was so tired having to juggle with work, not falling sick and house moving for a mad woman - me. I have so many things and in despair, I sat at the corner of my room late one night, crying inwardly on how crazy I must have been to get so many things in 4 short years.

It's good to have proper housemates and I love my new room. I like the little house very much but things are not totally settled yet, though I've been staying there for 3 weeks already! For once in my life, my bathroom's attached. :)

Am feeling that this year would be fun and nevertheless, aimless & carefree.

I never realised I'd miss you so much. Gawd.. you've just been away for 2 hours. Come back!!!